tryouts

I had VB tryouts at my school today, they went kinda good (there were obvious girls that were better then me), but i did fairly well for someone who's never been on a team before. The only thing I'm scared about is an actual game. We were split up into teams and each of use got a turn, but 3/5 times i messed it up!! Not really badly, but i would hit the ball with my fist or palm by accident, and it would make my team lose points. Now, this is just a friendly game of volleyball, what the hell am i gonna do (if i make the team) when we have a game against another team that doesn't care if you're new or not, they wanna kick your ass anyway!! I'm super scared!! And the worst part is, there's only 4 more practices till the 1st game, now for the other 10 girls that were there, another game, is just another game. They've been on teams before, so they know to to get along and what not. I'M NOT! I'm afraid I'm either gonna hit the ball wrong (with my fist or out of bounds) or not be there for my team!! (meaning, when whoever sets it, i don't make it to catch or even attack it!!) I would be humiliated in front of the team (talk about pissed!), my family (where's the pride gone??) and classmates (look at tht loser who thinks she can actually play! HA!) I would be totally embarrassed, and ashamed. And the Coach said that EVERYONE gets to play, so if the first half is going well, then i go in, and we somehow lose, it would be all my fault!! (maybe a few other problems with the better girls, but when they see i was usually hitting the ball wrong, they'll know it was mostly my fault too!) I don't know what to do, and I'm scared. What happened to "OMG I CANT WAIT TO BE ON THE TEAM!!" when that point gets closer and closer, the worse i feel about it and even regret it! HELP!! :(